Meanness

I cannot understand why people can be so mean sometimes. Whenever I snap at someone or yell, I always end up apologizing for being so mean. Yet whenever people are mean to me they either don't see it or refuse to acknowledge it if they realize they have hurt my feelings. There have been too many days in my life where I have locked myself in a room and cried my eyes out to no one but myself or my cat. 

I've been told that I am too nice and yes I can be for the most part. I do not, however, allow people to walk all over me like I'm some placemat. It seems that people confuse being nice with being submissive. Those are two totally different things and I become really annoyed with others assume they can take advantage of my niceness. 

I was raised to be independent. I was told to think for myself. I was instructed to defend my self and beliefs. Then explain to me why people refuse to let me be me and why they insist on treating me with meanness. 

-_-